"Life must be lived moving forward, but can only be understood looking back."
As I have thumbed through the pages of my devotion journal the past couple of days, praying for the future of the two BEAUTIFUL migrant girls, and seeking peace and comfort for my family, a divine story unfolded right before my eyes. I began to cry.
I cried because of the truth that was being revealed...because of the way the words were healing my heart. I cried because God was revealing Himself to me in a tangible way through the notes and verses I had scribbled on the plain pages over the past six months. I had been living life moving forward and saying "yes" to Him every time He called. Now, I was looking back. Looking for understanding. I cried because the story He revealed was perfect.
I cried because He is so obvious that He is in control. He is good. He is faithful. He is loving. He is eternal and all powerful. He is the beginning and the end, the Alpha and Omega. He was showing me that He was there in the beginning, the middle, and the end of this chapter. He reminded me AGAIN that He was the author, not me. (Obviously, I would have written a different ending!)
As I held the book close to my heart, there was peace. Through scripture, the bold, thunderous voice of an Almighty God could be heard recounting the truths of this adventure. This was God's story. I consider it an honor that my family had been given a part in His divine plan.
I found solace in all of your comments, messages, and prayers. Thank you.
We found comfort in this (an excerpt from a newsletter published monthly by friends who have a ministry that serves the 'least of these' in our town):
"It is with sadness in our hearts that we tell you "K" made the decision this month to move back in with her mother and sister......We have loved having her in our home these past six months and although we are unable to support her decision, IT HAS MADE US REALIZE, ONCE AGAIN, THAT OUR INPUT INTO THESE CHILDREN'S LIVES IS OFTEN JUST FOR A SEASON AND TOTALLY DEPENDENT ON WHETHER OR NOT THEY WANT OUR INPUT."
I shared this with my family. The words stung us like darts. Collectively, our shoulders slumped. Everyone sighed. We all said, "Amen."
The possibility that our input into the two BEAUTIFUL migrant girls' lives was just for a season had become a reality and they had left when they no longer wanted our input.
The stray puppy found her way 'home'. She returned to her pack.
The wild pony broke free from her pen and bolted back to the wide open pasture.
"So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold- though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world." 1 Peter 1:6-7
God isn't wasting any time writing the next chapter in this adoption tale...it has been a CrAzY week. Continue to join me around the campfire, He's not done, yet. The Story of Thunder and Lightning is not over. He is doing abundantly more than I could ever ask or imagine.
ALL glory to Him!