It was the kind of week when nothing went my way...nothing went as I had planned...nothing happened the way I thought it was going to happen...and everything that I thought should happen never did!
I can remember the days of my childhood when I would lay on my back in the grass on partly sunny summer days gazing at the clouds. I would be naming cloud creations...a butterfly here, a dragon over there, a heart, a mermaid, even angel wings. All kinds of things were endlessly created in the sky and identified by this kid with a vivid imagination and a tendency to dream. Though I am all grown up now, I still find myself gazing upward to the heavens from time to time. With childlike fervor, I still look for things in the clouds.
I found myself looking more than usual last week, but I saw nothing. Then just as surely as there was nothing, there was something. It hung down from the heavens like a bulletin board on the interstate. I saw question marks in the sky.
- Will you trust Me despite your circumstances?
- Do you believe My ways are higher than your ways?
- Will you abide in My plans to prosper you not to harm you?
- Do you have faith that My timing is perfect and I alone will complete what I have started?
- Kelli, when your circumstances do not align with your expectations, will you still cling to Me?
Months later, I am beginning to see that the Adoption Highway is not a super highway. It is a one lane dirt road lit by just one light and our vehicle is small....really small...like there is only room for us and God. There is no rear view mirror, no side view mirrors, no high beams or luggage space. The ride is not always comfortable...it doesn't always feel like a vacation...and the Highway of Life and the Adoption Highway are the same highway. One doesn't disappear while you travel down the other. The Highway of Life runs alongside the the Adoption Highway and they intersect, they merge and sometimes the lane changes between the two can be hazardous. The maps, the books, the timeline and the guides haven't always been accurate. Through the twists and turns, tight curves and pot holes I have had to hold on, search for the light illuminating the way, and pray.
God is walking down this road and kicking up dust. A French philosopher Leon Bloy said,
"Wherever Jesus walked and stirred up dust, nothing was ever the same again."
In the times of confusion and chaos, times of change, God continues to ask me, "Do you believe I AM...?"
- I AM hope.
- I AM the way.
- I AM the truth.
- I AM the life.
- I AM love.