Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Billboard: We Are Here For You

(written Tuesday, May 8, 2012)

I don't remember the exact date, but I do know it was about this time last year, a Sunday in late April or early May.  We were in church, standing on our feet.  The worship team was singing.  Our Honduran dossier had been completed with the exception of our USCIS approval letter and we were into another phase of the WAITING game.  My emotions were running high...much anticipation and excitement was building along 'the Adoption Highway'.  Soon our dossier would be in Honduras and we had every reason to expect a winter referral according to our agency's outlook at the time.

The scene was set for my rapture.

Hands were raised all around me.  People were applauding.  Praises flowed from the lips of many.  Lights dimmed and the next song set began:

"Let our praise be Your welcome
Let our songs be a sign
We are here for You, we are here for You.

Let Your breath come from heaven
Fill our hearts with Your life
We are here for You, we are here for You.

To you are hearts are open
Nothing here is hidden
You are our one desire
You alone are holy
Only You are worthy
God, let your fire fall down.

Let our shout be Your anthem
Your renown fill the skies
We are here for You, we are here for You.

Let your word move in power
Let what's dead come to life
We are here for You, we are here for You


Let it fall
Let it fall
Let it fall

We welcome You with praise
We welcome You with praise
Almighty God of love 
Be welcomed in this place

Let every heart adore
Let every heart awake
Almighty God of love
Be welcomed in this place

Be welcome in Your house Lord
Be welcome in Your house."

Yep...that was the song that changed everything for me.

I was literally transported to another place as we belted out the lyrics.  I was enthralled by the melody.  My heart beat to the beat of the drum in perfect rhythm and I knew the Spirit of God was embracing me, moving me.

I was experiencing a personal rapture of my heart and mind.

In that moment, I came to a complete realization that God absolutely is NOT here for me.  Quite to the contrary, I am here for Him.  None of this...not one bit of this is about me or for life is all about Him...being His hands and feet...going where He sends me...doing what He tells me...completely surrendering my heart, my mind, my soul, and my strength to Him.

I was here, I existed, to be used by Him, to glorify Him, and to make Him known.

Today our family is facing a difficult decision.

I have been in prayer all weekend, and God in His good and perfect way has taken me back to the very moment of my rapture when He whispered to my soul, "You, Kelli, child of mine, are here for be my hands and feet; to care about the very things I care about; to do the work I have planned for you.  I am good and I am faithful.  I will not leave you or forsake you.  Love others the way I have loved you."

As I have wholeheartedly sought Him, this is the place He has taken me back to.  That unforgettable, undeniable Sunday morning when the worship team started a new song set that would change me and my perspective for ever.  God was preparing me THEN for the choices that He in His infinite wisdom knew would lie ahead for us on this crazy and twisted Adoption Highway.

I am and always will be overwhelmed by His love.

No comments:

Post a Comment